Hilary

was photographed by Clayton Hauck at See You Soon during a Keep it 100 session on February 10, 2025

β€œI've made it to the point in my career which feels really amazing where I have a little bit of choice over what I shoot… And I can try to dictate toward building a portfolio of what I want to do more of.”

Hilarys’s Playlist:

β€œRockwell Studio”

Interviewed on location and edited by Clayton Hauck

How are you doing today, Hilary? 

You know what? I am doing great.

Except, in complete honesty, I met Clayton at the wrong bar. I wrote it wrong in my calendar.

I like the topic, though. We both live in in the neighborhood. We're both fans of bars. Where do you hang out? What are some of your favorite bars in the neighborhood? 

Well, in my time [outside of] taking photos, I am a competitive pinball player. The kind of β€œden of nerds” for all the pinball teams is Logan Arcade. But our home bar (we all have home bars and away bars) is the Green Eye Lounge, which is down under the Western blue line. That's where our friend group hangs out the most and I just love that spot. 

How did you get into pinball originally, and how long have you been into it? 

I got into pinball because I had just started freelancing… I initially came to Chicago to work for the Red Eye. Once I started freelancing, you know, I was shooting events and weddings and things that happened on weekends for the most part. And so I was taking all the work I could get and I did not have any weekends free. And so, an old Red Eye colleague of mine, Dana Moran (who at the time I remember when I first started at Red Eye, being like, I want to be friends with her but I don't know how yet!), she sent out an email to a lot of the old Red Eye people that said, β€œHey, my boyfriend is in this pinball league, we're all playing at this new arcade bar tonight.” And that was the year that Logan Arcade opened. So this was now ten years ago, maybe? 

Awesome. 

And that was also coincidentally the night I met my husband. (Laughs)

Wow. Playing pinball is how you met?!

Playing pinball! Because the guy that Dana was dating had lived with Greg, my husband, so they were just in the same friend group. And then I joined the pinball team … I remember [looking at a pinball machine the same way we all look at a pinball machine] and [Colin] came up and said, well, β€œDo you wanna know what you're doing?” And I was like, β€œI didn't know there was anything for me to do.” And he said, β€œThere's a couple goals you're trying to accomplish. There are things that lead to other things.” And it was really the first thing that I found that I could be competitive against myself. And something I just know is that I need some sort of competitive outlet.

He schooled you, a little bit?

I was like oh my God, I could do that.

But that's the other thing. You can put up to four people on a pinball machine, so that's how there are leagues and such. 

And between rounds there's drinking. (Cheers!)

We are in Chicago, you need indoor activities. 

Where did you move to Chicago from? Where are you from originally? 

I moved to Chicago from the metro Detroit area. So I grew up in Sterling Heights and I went to Michigan State University and that is something that I kind of enjoy talking about too, and reflecting on. I really started photographing people and understanding that that was how I felt best moving through the world when I was like 15, 16 years old. 

And did you study photography in college? 

I did, but it took me a while to get there because I ended up going to a residential college within Michigan State. They had only been around for a year and I was introduced to them on a college night after my mom and I had gone around the country going to art schools that I had gotten into, but just didn't feel right at ... We went to Rhode Island; we went to Chicago; we went out to Santa Barbara. I thought that that's what I wanted, and then I got there and I was like, well, all of these people are doing the same thing I'm doing! Or they were artists and I can't draw from Adam, so that made me panic in a way …

Anyway, so I was kind of out of place where, you know, I was feeling disenchanted. I got into these places, I felt that's what I had to do, but I'm not feeling excited about any of them. And it was my dad, my dad was a Michigan State basketball player, he said, β€œJust humor me. Just go to the Michigan State Booth.”

And I went up to the Michigan State booth and there was a woman there named Kate McGormley and she said, β€œWhat do you like to do?” And I said, β€œI like writing and I like taking photos of people.” And her eyes got all big, and she said, β€œMy God! We just started this college…” And she started kind of rambling the way that I ramble, and I just felt this excitement kind of coming off of her. And I was so excited that it was new and they didn't know what they were yet. And that was the best part of it.

I'm actually going and speaking at the college at the end of the month, so I've been reflecting on this a lot. But yeah, that was how I ended up there. 

That's great. So tell me a little bit about you as a photographer these days, like, what are you shooting? What are you like to shoot? How's business, you know, get as broad or specific as you like? 

My elevator pitch is that I usually get brought in when you have a lot of people that are uncomfortable in front of the camera. So the way that I've figured out and enjoy doing that is to be hired by a brand to set up a photo booth at conventions. That is honestly at this point 80% of my business. So split among three retainer clients for the most part… and then, I'll take a tangent, because I've made it to the point in my career which feels really amazing where I have a little bit of choice over what I shoot… And I can try to dictate toward building a portfolio again of what I want to do more of. And that feels really good and that's the first time I've ever been here.

Two weeks ago, I got a call from a friend that [asked if I was] available next week for a photo booth. There was this woman that had dropped out the week before and she had screwed them over with a contract. She had tried to do β€œAi photo experiences” that were each going take forty minutes and the week before the event she told them, β€œOh, by the way, I'm going to need everybody that does this to sign photo releases.” And they were like, absolutely not.

Was this photographer that was making everyone sign releases using AI? Was she trying to use peoples’ likeness to train Ai models?! 

I think so, because I don't know why else you would need releases.  

It sounds sketchy. On the topic, though I'm curious, general thoughts. Ai. Are you freaked out? Excited?

It depends on the minute, it depends on the day, depends on the topic, really, because it's (and I do not say this word lightly) raping artists. It is taking people's work that does not fucking belong to them, and it is using it to train itself. As a general concept, I fucking hate it. Have we never read a book? Have we never watched a movie? This will go bad. So that is where my head is at with it in general. I will say, though, as somebody who has used Photoshop for twenty years, the fact that I can now just be like, beep, beep beep, expand, delete β€” that is what I wanted it to do since I got it. So there are elements of it that I think are sophisticated and impressive and useful, but the way that they are stealing from artists is upsetting to me. 

Not to turn this on me, but part of the reason I started this Keep it 100 project was sort of to be anti-Ai. You were the first repeat customer! So tell me a little bit about why you like it. 

Oh my God, I'm so I will talk about this all day. 

I want to hear from your perspective, though.

I think that Clayton, pound for pound, is the coolest photographer in Chicago right now (Editor blushes). I used to work with Lenny Gilmore, who's light taught me a lot, and I think that your craft in terms of light is exceptional, and then your creativity in the way that people look and seem to feel in your photos. You don't get those things together very often. I pride myself on making people comfortable in a scene, but I'll be the first to tell you that sometimes I fuck up my lighting.

I'll photograph three-hundred people in a day and so this subject comes up a lot. Your headshot should look like you. And as an artist, I should have one headshot that looks like the headshots I take. But something that represents me as an artist, I want that to look cool and weird and lit to the high heavens. And that is something that I don't want to do for myself. I want somebody that I really respect and admire to do for me. 

You've been kind. 

It depends on the minute, it depends on the day, depends on the topic, really, because it's (and I do not say this word lightly) raping artists. It is taking people's work that does not fucking belong to them, and it is using it to train itself.

What do you love about Chicago? 

I love that Chicago loves Chicago. I love that Chicago is, you know, especially being an artist in Chicago, I enjoy hyping up other artists. I enjoy being hyped up by other artists. You know, I enjoy when people here do cool shit. It's good for everybody. There's no gatekeeping bullshit in Chicago. And I respect the attitude. I respect the work ethic. And I respect the fact that we live through our seasons. 

Love the seasons!

Is there anyone specifically you want to hype up? 

Nyia Sissac is somebody. I really respect her work. She's doing a lot of film and she works down at Latitude. Latitude is what I want to hype up. [They are] a film development lab in the West Loop. The reason that I took her class was that I think that mastering skin tones, especially if you're working with artificial light, is super important. It's something I really want everybody to do better, including myself, and yeah, I consider her a master of that. 

Look at us. We just can't get off the topic of photography. 

I got two [non-photo]. In terms of custom fabrication, we got Vector. Vector fucking rules. My friends Nate and Erik run Vector. It is down by the United Center. A lot of the large scale sculpture in the city was done by them. We were all just at the Flying Saucer and Nate looked up and he went, β€œI made that!” There’s just so much stuff that you've walked by a million times that you don't even realize β€” we had been friends for years and later I looked at their website for the first time and a sculpture that was in front of my dorm room at university, they had made.

And then someone else I want to shout out are my friends, Tim and Joni, at Pour Souls. They do custom cocktail starters. They're over on Division, and I feel like everybody plasters their faces up against the glass, but has no idea what they do. If they're open, go in, if they're not, follow them on Instagram and figure out what the fuck they got going on, because it's always cool. 

Sweet, I love it. Anything else you wanna leave us with? Last thoughts, last word, a joke…

Wait, oh, God. I was so working on jokes because I do headshots a lot and people will panic and ask me for a joke. So I learned a Rodney Dangerfield one, are you ready?

Yes. 

(Begins Rodney Dangerfield voice) When I was born, I was so ugly that the doctor slapped my mother!

It's all I got! I needed a short one-liner. 

And now I have to ask another question, because I struggle with jokes, and can never remember any, and it's such a photographer go-to. Do you have like a backlog of things to say? Can you reveal any of your secrets if you do? 

The one that has been sittin’ pretty in my front pocket for years now β€” I am a very Irish-looking person. I have red hair and freckles and blue eyes. So, the one that I have that only works for a darker-humor kind of person is: how many potatoes does it take to kill an Irishman? Zero! (Editor confused…)

He didn't get any potatoes, they all died! There was a famine, Clayton! (Editor is embarrassed for not getting it)

It's horrible. It's a bad joke, but it's the only one that comes into my head and it gets a laugh one in five times. It's not even good, it's not even useful, but my brain just breaks when I get that question.  

That is a dark joke. I get it now and it is funny, but it's dark.

Yeah. That's all I got. 

Awesome. Well thank you very much for your time. 

πŸ“ Hilary is a photographer and lives in Chicago.

πŸ‘‰ You can check out her website here

πŸ‘‰ You can find her on IG @hilaryhiggins

Photos by Clayton Hauck made with a Canon R πŸ“Έ

Session took place at See You Soon in Chicago, USA πŸ“

You can book your own Keep it 100 session here. βœ¨πŸ“Έβœ¨

Gallery of Clayton’s favorite images from the session:

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